Opening this new chapter of my spiritual and personal development, I see it’s time to work out my worst of habits. After gaining control of myself again, next in line it’s to gain back responsibility. But because my day is entirely booked by studies, I’ve decided to dedicate the night for this responsibility-therapy.
After moving to the house my dad’s been building for more than ten years, the comfort of it has gotten the best of me and I almost literally can not move anywhere (else.) Being surrounded completely by a blissful forest, an endless field and a quiet creek makes me fall asleep even at the thought about it. But above all that, there goes responsibility – I’ve stopped helping with anything other than chores, which I’ve come to realize is not enough for me, as work has been very determining for my character.
Night rest has been the leading priority in my life since day one, so I think that is the spot I need to hit first, in order to start the process of healing. Adjusting my mind to nighttime, training my thought process to continue for twenty-four hours and stopping all verbal communication with my-self (a.k.a. talking to myself, especially in front of people) are just part of the new night-shift chores that are now becoming main part of my life. But I find it difficult to complete these tasks, as I’ve gotten way too used to the comfort that has been given to me, and I realize I’ve abused this privilege.
Instead of having comfort take the best of me, I’ll take the best of it and my new plan is to start exploring my surroundings and decorate these beautiful pieces of nature with my newly developed sense of fantasy. But I still have a long way to go, until I’ve perfected this side of me, and also a lot more bad habits I need to kill, but for now I’ll take it one step at a time, at least until I’m sure I can do healthy multitasking as never before.
TOMMY EXPLORES THE WORLD 