I think I get hurt too easily. Yes, in fact, the brick facade I’ve built to protect myself from people is prone to crumbling. Looking back, I’m too quick to end connections once somebody I trust lets me down; that could be way too radical of a measure to teach people a lesson, but I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: I don’t ride the limp horse twice.
Speaking of limp horses, I recently attended one of my friends’ birthday party and there were all these different people, and, for the most part, there did he sit in all his glory: somebody that I considered a close friend not too long ago. Thing is, I find it very offensive to find a lover and start neglecting people you find trust in, and I’d never do the same. But this time we spoke, and I was happy to hear what he was telling me, whatever the context was. He did however pay attention to me so that I’d be good enough to drive him home, but he lives in my direction anyway. It’s important to show growth: I believe I didn’t seem as childish as before and also I wanted to hear more from him. I did good.
There’s nothing more flattering to me than a flirt initiated by the other person. I’m usually too slow in the head to notice right away and it takes up to four or five business days for me to acknowledge that a flirtation has happened. That same night at my friend’s birthday party I noticed it right away.
Rule #5: don’t start affiliations with your close friends’ relatives. I’ve read enough books, seen enough movies and heard enough stories to know better. I just wouldn’t do it. It was way too obvious for me to get too much in my head about it. I didn’t reply with the same energy, however. It wasn’t only because of that stupid rule, I just don’t have it – I’m too tired and disappointed by everybody to be engaging in this type of intimate chat. Also, Rule #4: tall truly is the opposite of short.
But meeting and talking to new people is a very interesting skill that I’ve recently taken up, but the road doesn’t end there: I need to start maintaining communication and friendships with the people I meet. I’ve come to find out that I’m a very interesting a bright person – one would always stop their eyes on me when in a crowd. So the very important lesson now is that I shouldn’t be scared of people, no matter how bad it is, it could always be worse. I turned my shyness into a barrier by hiding it behind pride and anger, not allowing anyone to talk to me, so that I don’t get disappointed if (when) they happen to hurt me, telling myself I’m better off alone. Turns out, that’s not the truth, and I don’t have anyone to speak to anyone other than myself.
Time to be open enough to find friends. So time to educate myself better, and create and environment that allows for my better behavior.
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